Tag: wishful thinking

A Day Without Diabetes, Revisited

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A day without diabetes…it’ll happen, one day. Who knows when. But until that happy time, it’s fun to think about what a day without diabetes would look like for me. Originally, I dreamed up a diabetes-free day 5 years ago (which you can read about here); while what I wrote then is still pretty much 100% true for me now, I think it’s more enjoyable to think about the bigger picture rather than get into the nitty-gritty details – though I definitely wouldn’t say no to any of the specifications I got into my previous post!

What does the bigger picture look like? In a word, bliss. In a list, something like this:

  • Eat whatever the hell I want without repercussions
  • Exercise in any form without my blood sugar levels stopping me
  • Enjoy the silence created by no beeping or alarming devices
  • Embrace a device-free body
  • Evade needles of all shapes and sizes, excess medications, and tiny blood droplets that won’t stain my clothing because they aren’t there
  • Experience peace of mind in knowing that my decisions for the day would not be sway in any form by diabetes

I think it’s that last bullet point that resonates with me more than any of the others – “experience peace of mind”. While I can certainly attain that even while actively managing my diabetes, it’s not quite the same because there’s always a part of me, even if it’s tinier than a speck of dust, that will worry about diabetes. I can’t ever seem to get rid of it. But I could if I were to ever experience a day without diabetes.

That’s why I remain hopeful, if not naively optimistic, that I’ll get to experience one – and many others, to boot, if I want to get really enthusiastic about it – in my lifetime.

Wishful Thinking: A Day Without Diabetes

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I’ve heard the following phrase for just about my entire life:

“There will be a cure for diabetes in the next five years, just wait!”

Uh, I’m still waiting over here. Where’s the aforementioned cure? *Taps foot impatiently*

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It’s fun to fantasize about life with diabetes, especially when you look at the numbers like this.

Oooookay, while I sit here and wait for another 20 years of diabetes to come and go, I’ll daydream. Ooh! I’ll daydream about a day without diabetes. What would it look like for me? I have some ideas…

  • In the morning: I’d wake up feeling incredibly well-rested. That’s because I’d sleep through the night without my CGM going off. After rolling out of bed with a head of perfectly-mussed hair (this is MY fantasy here, so just go with it), I’d head down into the kitchen to indulge in a ginormous cinnamon bun slathered in cream cheese frosting for my breakfast. I’d savor every bite and relish in not having to poke myself with needles multiple times in order to eat the tasty treat.
  • In the afternoon: After actually enjoying a workout at the gym (cue my Anna from Frozen singing voice) for the first time in foreverrrrrr, I’d probably treat myself to a massage/spa day. But a shower first because a masseuse should never have to deal with a smelly and stinky person. You know what would be awesome about that experience? I wouldn’t be worried about my blood sugar all throughout it and I could just appreciate the act of self-care. And for lunch? I’m not a TOTAL junk food junkie – I’d eat a healthy, balanced lunch that day. Perhaps a smoothie bowl laden with fabulous fructose-filled fruits that WOULDN’T spike me? Maybe a massive salad topped with carb-y croutons? The possibilities are endless.
  • In the evening: The day would wind down with a sense of accomplishment, because I would’ve been able to run errands without a single diabetes-related complication slowing me down. I’d glam myself up for a night on the town in which I’d consume one or four cocktails, free from wild swings due to alcohol’s effects on blood sugar. And then I’d run into Kit Harrington (Jon Snow from Game of Thrones, A.K.A. an extraordinary man) and he’d sweep me off my feet and we’d take off into a sunset sans diabetes.

Okay, yeah, I’m definitely stretching my imagination as I picture a couple parts of this day…but it sure is fun to think about life without diabetes.