The vast majority of the time, I’m relatively unbothered by my diabetes.
I accepted long ago that it’s not going away any time soon. While that acceptance has made it easier to live a full life in spite of diabetes, I definitely still experience the occasional day that diabetes bothers me more compared to other days.
It’s the days that I’m trying to enjoy time spent with loved ones.
It’s the days that I want to eat whatever I want without any consequences.
Heck, it’s the days that I want to eat, period – I’ve had days in which diabetes has restricted me from eating much of anything at all.
It’s the days that I need a really solid night of sleep the night before, but don’t get it because diabetes interfered.
It’s the days that I’m feeling so burnt out from it all that I just want to be normal.
Obviously, I’ve learned how to power through these days that I’m truly bothered by diabetes. But the ones that I simply can’t find the strength to do so are the hardest, and that’s when diabetes really gets to me.
I think that after 23 years with it, I’m allowed to be bothered by my diabetes every now and then. I don’t have to radiate sunshine and positivity about life with diabetes 24/7.
However, I think it makes the times that I’m unbothered by my diabetes that much richer because that’s when I get to stick it to diabetes.